And the Plot Twists...

Guess what has been going on in my life (lives)! Come on guess! I dare you! I find it somewhat unbelieveable myself, and I'm pretty sure I was there. Hillbaby and houseguest whore are no more. *GASP* I know, I know, it is simply inconcievable that this turn of events should come about. I mean, no one saw this coming. ;) So, where has this landed me, in the midst of this disturbing and farfetched love triangle? Why enjoying the pleasures of guilt ridden, depressing, I'm never going to do this again, till the next time, sex. I admit it I am a weakling. I have no willpower. I have no self control, self respect, self discipline. Yeah, pretty much everything having to do with self, I am lacking. I must try to remeber to work on aquiring a soul, a concious, and possibly a heart. Definitely a brain. Anyone know where I might find these simple items. Somehow I feel myself slipping right back into the black hole that I was so rudely thrust out of.

I have to wonder, are men really as stupid as they seem? Or is it just an act so that they may never feel responsible for all of the things that they do to us? Apparently now that HGW has left hillbaby high and dry, I should be his friend, listen to his heartbreak, and offer up all the convincing platitudes. Do I do this? Of course I do. I told you I am weak. What do I really want to say? How does it feel! Sucks ass don't it. Ever heard that joke about how when you play a country song backward you get your dog back, you get your truck back, you get your wife back? Who knew that fairy tales really happen!

In truth, and I can almost admit the truth here, where no one but me sees it, it hurts. Why couldn't he have felt that way about me? What was it about her, that he found so much more appealing? And now I look at the way she treated him, (which we all knew was coming) and I see how upset he is about it, and I think, I never did anything like that. I walked away from everything I had in my life, gave him everything that I could give him, I never lied to him, betrayed him, cheated on him or stole from him. But am I the one he wants? Of course not. Because my life just cannot be that simple. He is however, more than willing to graciously allow me back into his bed. With the proviso that I don't tell anyone of course. I can't get over my own stupidity. Seriously, I think that I should probably be taken out in a field and shot. What a waste of brains and breath I have been. I think I must have gotten sucker tattooed on my forhead when I wasn't looking. God Save Us from the rednecks and morons.

And Who Should Appear?

Guess who made a sudden appearence back in SmallTown? X. X has returned to the land of sour milk and bees. I was quite amazed. Apparently he went home with WWotW before I got there. Corosion was out and about. I really don't understand why he is so chatty with me, I mean the guy was married to a small town barbie. Barbie got in a fight with Sis, and cowboy didn't even step in. What else has happened? The western sky was bright last night, and appreciated by many. Kiddsis has found out that the new addition will indeed be female! Whoo Hoo!

Can't get that pesky refrain out of my head. I swear it is driving me crazy. I can't even begin to discuss, because it seriously makes me physicaly ill. I should be over it by now, this is unlike me. I do have a nice parting gift, I must use this oppertunity wisely. Off to assimilate statistics homework. ~Megan

School Days are Here Again

Return to classes today. Decided to take it easy this semester, and only took two classes. Modern history (damn LER's) and Quantative Measures in Psyc (statistics). Both should be fairly cake like, which is always to be recomended in summer semester. Finally left hick campus and am taking classes at main. Computer labs here are freaking fantastic! I could happily remain here for the rest of the term.

Not so much going on in other news. Longhair remains the sweetest guy I have ever met. I have never appreciated a bed so much in my life. I did have a very crazy weekend. My car was having fits, and of course it always does that when you are somewhere you aren't supposed to be. Went to Conneaut for a side job, but that turned out badly, and unfortunately cooking school has been postponed. I havve determined that there must be a leak in the line, and that is so not cool. Sunflower and snake, new additions to this particular blog, have yet again proven that they are unworthy of my continued good will. Snake thinks he has some pull with me apparently, telling me that I have to leave his boy alone. I can send his boy to jail if I so please, his command means nothing to me. It actually kind of pissed me off. Cousin is looking at fifteen years for his combination of charges, and cityboy got a total of thirty something.

She who must not be named is being shirty lately, probably becase of the lack of extras, since my change in lifestyle. However, it is highly unpleasant and have been avoiding that whole scene.

WWotW works at barbs. Can you believe it. Went there to have breakfast with oldman and she was working. Desperately wanted to ridicule her, but refrained. Conductor returned from a three week vaca, i must see him about getting my watch back. littledevil is being missed, i guess i had better call her. moniecon needs to reaply herself to her lj activities, so i know she is out of jail. romy and michelle are the same as ever.

*note to self lj private post nick061305*

Happy Happy Joy Joy... Ren & Stimpy anyone?

I have been feeling giddy all day. Too many bc pills maybe? :) So the plan is simple, move. I have not been this excited about a move since Phoenix. I finally feel like there is nothing holding me back, nothing from Andover/Williamsfield that I want or need, I am free to make a new life for myself.

This one took longer than usual. Almost a whole month to get the hillbilly out of my system. * Sidenote* I hate how you spell hillbilly. The double consonant (l) calls for the traditional ie ending. However since the word is diminuitive slang for a proper name, you retain the y ending. Hate that. *End sidenote* I still get a flash now and then, like the phantom pain of a missing limb. But after the dream I had about hillbaby last night, I finally understand my infatuation, and what you understand you can conquer.

Moving on....

Continuance

So, life continues. Turns out my jealous and catty remarks were justified. Houseguest whore, has become the wife of hillbaby, a mere three weeks after the end of the begining. In other news, longhair continues to delight, while WWotW seems unable to refrain from making nasty comments about wheter or not I slept with her husband. ( X has disapeared from town, has not been seen since the week of his birthday, coincidentaly the same week I last saw him.)

Have recently had some legal issues, no thanks to hillbaby, and am working on resolution this week. Hillbaby seems very nervous that I may try to get him in trouble. I wonder why that might be? :)

I have some unresolved issues I would like to discus with him, but I don't think his wife will allow him to talk to me. I can say, having slept with several of the new wife's ex's that she is definitely a liar, hillbaby is so not bigger than them!~Later~