Gossip, Gossip, Gossip...

I have finally found the joy of being the one to spread the gossip! After years of my one acquaintance spreading the nastiest rumors about me, I find myself in the position to spread true rumors about her. JOY! Unfortunately one of my friends has a conscience and promptly made me feel guilty for my moment of joy. :(

In other news, X has been replaced, at least temporarily. I will have to see how it goes but preliminaries are encouraging.:)

Back to School

Finally I have gone back to school, and of course the worst snow storm to hit the area since early december has decided to strike. I hate having to driv ean hour in the snow. I hate it. However, most of my classes so far seem to be fairly interesting.

X actually called me the other day. I almost fell over from shock. However when I returned the call the WWotW was there, so I talked to roomate. So I haven't seen X since his birthday. I don't know why I like him so much. I know if we were actually dating, I wouldn't like him that much.

In other news Jeff has called me twice. I am sorry I missed his calls, he probably thinks I am ignoring him. *sigh* not too much else going on I guess.

Have I ever told you that small towns make you crazy...

School is almost ready to start. I can't believe that I am so excited about being able to get out of the house on a regular basis. I firmly believe that if cabin fever doesn't kill you, it will drive you to kill someone else!

My damn car is not cooperating with my efforts to leave the house and I had to nag the old man for hours today to get him to look at it.

Talked about going to X's house tonight last time I was there, but we'll see if that happens or not. It is his birthday tomarrow.

nothing else is happening I guess. boredom has officially set in.

Anticipation...

Financial aid can be a nightmare sometimes. Waiting and waiting and waiting some more. I think it should theoretically be here tomorrow. I hope so because my bar time has been seriously reduced due to lack of funds.

My family is driving me insane. Seriously. The constant noise and unruliness is beginning to really frustrate me. Jesus fucking christ! I swear to god I am going to flip the fuck out sometimes. I can't wait for school to start so that I have a regular excuse to get out of the house.

One of my close friends is running from the cops. Her house was involved in a drug raid and her mother and husband are in jail. Freaky. I was just over there not too long ago. Guess I should send some email notification to some of my out of town friends about that one.

Still unsure about the whole X situation. I wish he didn't make me feel so guilty. I wonder if that makes him feel less guilty. He did have questions about my "other" boyfriends though. Maybe I should tell him that the conductor and I haven't seen each other that much since the "night" and the cleaning woman has come along. As for the other, his wife has been ensuring that we keep our distance lately.

I sometimes wonder why I go out of my way to make my own life complicated. Maybe I'm not the smartest girl in town. Dumbass.

Winter Weather is Awful

Not too much has been going on here, the crappy weather has been keeping us all indoors.

My brother and his girlfriend are moving in with us. It is a little bit of an adjustment to get used to other people living here.

Finally gave in and went to visit X on Tuesday. It was a little suprising actually. He went on about how much he missed me, how he couldn't believe that he was admitting that he missed me, and something about, not knowing how much you like something till it's gone. He was way fucked up, so I don't know if he said more because he was, or if he was just fucking around. I guess I just can't bring myself to trust him. He's just to pretty to be honest.

I guess I have to think about things. He told me not to stay away for three weeks again. *Sigh* I want to believe him, and I want it to be true, but I know it would be...bad. Boys used to be easier.

Rambling...

Went out last night with my brother and his girlfriend. I guess we had a good time. Cindy & Clint, Steve & Tonya, Connie, and Monnie were all there. Much drunkeness was in evidence.

Katie will go back to school on Monday, but I don't have to go back until the eighteenth. Excitement.

I keep thinking about X, even though I have been a good girl and stayed away from there for two whole weeks, I find myself thinking about him at odd moments throughout the day. Everyday. I force myself to not drive by his house every day. What is wrong with me? Why can't I get a guy who treated me like crap out of my mind?