Is everyone stupid?

Have spent most of the day scratching my head in frustration and wonderment at the absurd amount of stupid people to be found. On a college campus no less. It seems the future is looking bleak if these are the up and comers of the nation. Also, while trying to join the young republicans, and or the college republicans, both websites had non working links. Very confidence building, don't you think?

Hillbilly apparently considers me to now be a non entity, and in conversation seems to forget that we ever dated. When unpleasantly reminded of this fact, stammering and confusion ensue. *return to kicking self*

College administrators: if your staff is incompetent, your students will transfer!

Are you Fucking Kidding Me?

Hillbaby, what the fuck is wrong with you? You have really turned out to be a fucking whack job! I can't believe that your flipping the fuck out on me, when god knows all I ever did was try to be your friend. Any of your other friends call you everyday to see if your okay? You finally got a new friend with a driver's license, so suddenly I'm lower than the toilet paper stuck to the back of your shoe? That is just fucked up.

I guess I should have seen it coming, for every lie you ever told me, for all the things you never asked for, for your crippling insecurity. I truly think that you believe you were in love. I am also convinced that you have no clue what the word means. Another one you might want to look up is respect, oh and friendship. Which is not friendship if it is not reciprocal. So I guess what we had centered on a bad case of idolatry on my part, and flagrant disregard for my feelings on yours.

Do you know how I feel when you whine about how bucked up your life is? I didn't do a damn thing to deserve the total fuck job that I got, but everyone still expected me to be nice, smile, make friends. Fuck you guys. I drove your mother fucking asses around. I went to your grandmother's funeral. And now that the whore you fucked me over for left you, you have the fucking balls to think I should feel bad for you?! You have got to be fucking kidding. Even now, I go out of my way to be friends with you. God knows you never make any effort at all, and really this is my penance. I continue to hang around you, knowing it makes me feel like shit, because I think I deserve it for bucking over the good husband. Who upon our reconciliation, informed me of his plans to sleep on the couch. You think your life is fucking awful? You married a whore you had been dating for a month, and she fucked you over, man nobody saw that one coming. You need to grow up, and get over yourself, look around you and see the consequences that your actions have on the people around you.

How do you know if....

How do you know if your a pathological liar? Are there warning signs? A checklist you can go through? I seem to find myself lying indiscriminately, without cause, with varying degrees of importance, almost constantly. Why might this be? Is it my utter inability to face the reality of my life? Is it my unnatural fascination with manipulation? Why must I take so much joy out of manipulating people who I know are weaker than me? Is it the feeling of power? I am really starting to have some serious issues.

New words of wisdom, Do not call and they will come. Fabricate plans and they will salivate. Finally give in, and they belong to you. Till the next round.

I keep making my life more and more complicated, and it is really getting to be fairly treacherous. I know I am going to wind up in a very unpleasant circumstance if I don't change my course of action, but I seem unable to change.

I always knew I'd grow up to be a junkie and a whore.

My parents must be so proud.

What am I supposed to do with all these fucking Lemons?!

I am having the crappiest day ever! I know, I know, how can life inside my own twisted little world be crappy? If you only knew. First of all, I have serious issues, (you may have noticed that already)and they require a certain amount of maintenance to remain non-volatile. They are very near a breaking point. If you actually know me, a word of warning, steer clear for a while, someone is going to get the full blast of about 10 years worth of repressed rage. Damn, I almost feel sorry for the sucker.

Overabundance of extracurricular is resulting in disturbingly vivid and realistic hallucinations. My typing skills seem to also be impaired. My miserable life continues to be miserable though, so it must have been the hillbilly, and not the extracurricular. I am very near the point of just punching him in the fucking face sometimes, I mean, a little sensitivity please? You don't even know all the really mean and nasty things that I think about him and don't say. I really think that being a grown up is starting to suck big time.

Have finally come to the conclusion that not only am I selfish, have a horrible temper, and lazy, I may not be as smart as I have always believed myself to be. What did X used to say? You do awfully stupid stuff for the smartest girl in town. My lowlife patheticness is really beginning to become unbearable. If only I could ignore them by abusing some sort of drug....

Listen to me, it's all I think about. I am really a junkie. I can not freaking believe I let this happen to myself. It's not like I didn't know that drugs were bad for you (like cigarette's and sex). I think I'm in a hole I can't dig myself out of. And the only person that would help me, ....Forget it. I may as well resign myself to some jail time. Maybe I can get straight and figure my life out.

*Snort* as if.