Physics is the devil

I have decided that I really dislike physics. I like the concept, but not the application. Quantum mechanincs were clearly designed to torment those of us who have yet to obtain a mathematics degree.

In other news, a breif visit home for the weekend was particularly unrewarding. I hate that my friends feel the need to inundate me with the gossip about someone I am trying to forget. It does get easier, but some things constantly remind me of him. I think back and I can't help but wish I had never met him. I would be about ready to graduate, I would have a house, a car, a driver's license, everything. I walked away from everything in my life for someone who is so obviously unworthy. Why would I do that?

I really have to get on the things that have to be done for my probation. I think I have untill the end of next month. I still have forty hours of community service, the three day driver intervention, the assesment and drug screening, and of course all the fines. Everything he ever said to me was a lie. I hate that.

The merry go round goes round and round..

I would say that I have been busy, but I guess I haven't. Back at school living on campus with the old man. It don't get more exciting than this! Have actually managed to meet some people though. Days go by, and thoughts cross my mind...less and less, sometimes only once a day. The life I left, the things I knew I had to give up sometimes I remeber them and it's like a slice. Not that painful, but a lingering ache. Melancholy seems inevitable, unavoidable, unending and suffocating.